Beans, beans, they're good for your heart...

Oh come on, it's STILL funny even if you're not 5! :)

At the turn of the year I announced to my lad that I am buying less meat.  Mainly it's a budget thing, veg and pulses cost a lot less than meat, are tasty, filling, and go a long way.  Anyway, he announced that that was fine, he was going vegetarian.  He's 13, whether it sticks or not, I don't know, but he's stuck to it so far and good on him.

It's also been good for me to have to shake up our meals a little bit, it's so easy to get stuck in a rut with food and make the same stuff all the time.

We've had some really tasty meals.  Pasta with home made arrabiata sauce and some salad (Ally had Quorn meatballs in his).

A lovely tarka daal (recipe by Jack Monroe - https://cookingonabootstrap.com/2016/12/29/tarka-daal-vegan/):

A nice veggie fried rice with grilled halloumi and veg:

Baked eggs with peppers, onions, and tomatoes:

This super quick and easy vegetable and quinoa laksa:

Minestrone and not-meatball stew:

But my favourite so far was a made up beany chilli that I chucked together last week:

2 x tins chilli beans
1 x tin baked beans
1 x tin pinto beans
1 x tin black eye beans (please do not confuse with black eyed peas, that makes chill.i.am instead of chilli)
1 x tin chopped tomatoes
a few squirts of tomato puree
1 tsp ground coriander
1 tsp ground cumin
1/2 tsp ground cinnamon (or pop a cinnamon stick in, but don't eat it!)
seasoning
the crushed chillis/cayenne/chilli powder part of it is up to you, make it as hot as you like :)

Just simmer it all together for 20-30 mins gently, just to reduce the liquid a little and make it a bit thicker, check the seasoning and the spice level, then serve.
We had it with steamed rice and a salad of spinach, tomatoes, red onion, coriander, and a bit of salt and lime juice.  Very tasty, will definitely make it again.  I'm sure it would freeze nicely too, but we scoffed a huge pot of it over a couple of days so it never made it that far...

As our meals are all vegetarian now (although I do still have small meat binges now and again, my boy doesn't though!) so rather than me cart a pile of fruit and veg back from the supermarket every week I decided to get a local veg box delivery.  I went with Pillars of Hercules (http://www.pillars.co.uk/) because I really like them, good fresh produce and their farm shop and cafe is great if you are ever out their way, do check it out.

This is our first box from Pillars, delivered today:

It's a great size for us, I was worried it would be too much but as we are eating more veg now it's great.  We have:
A few HUGE potatoes
beautiful dirty carrots
a bag of curly kale (a fave of mine!)
a lovely dirty neep
some leeks
a few nice big onions
2 long pointy red peppers
a lemon
a few oranges
a few tomatoes
a cabbage

It costs £15 a week and is delivered on a Thursday to us which is perfect.  I plan our meals for the week on a Thursday and do the shopping on a Friday or Saturday. I will have to get a few extra bits and bobs, but I would rather spend £15 a week on fresh, tasty, organic veg, most of which is grown locally, than £15 on supermarket meat.  we'll see how we get on.

If you want any recipes of any of the pictures of our veggie feasts, do shout.  I tend to make things up as I go along but can give you a fair idea of where to start.

Big veggie love!
Jill xx

Music, and ink, and pounds, and pots and pots of love...

I've just had my favourite band name tattooed onto my side. Why? Well...

I think it was 1989 (I know I was 15, so it might have been 1990…), my pal’s big brother was going to Glasgow to a gig.  For reasons I can’t even remember we were deemed worthy of going with him and his mate. My pre-parenthood life is all very hazy so I’m not sure who supported who, but the bands we saw were Texas and GUN.  I dunno where we even were, Glasgow somewhere!

Texas were pretty cool, I still have a soft spot for them. But GUN were just right up my street.  Their first album hadn't long been released and once I had it bought, it was played LOTS! I still count Taking on the World as one of the most perfect albums I own, it still makes me just as happy when I play it now, 27 years later. Actually, I think I probably appreciate it even more now.

I have no idea how many times in the 1990s I saw GUN (and Texas!) live, but lots!  I do remember the first time I chatted to any of them – it was 1994 at the very first T in the park at Strathclyde Country Park.  I went with my pal Caroline, we worked together in RBS.  We had a very funny chat with Mark Rankin, their original singer, (there were a few pints of Tennents involved…) and Peter Cunnah from D:Ream about the use of punctuation in their band name. Again, hazy but it’s in there somewhere!

They released lots more cracking material, I went to some phenomenal gigs.  I was a teenager – I had posters up in my bedroom J  In 1997 (no longer a teen, but still obsessed!), Radio Forth had a weekend long competition running. Each show they would play a GUN track and you had to phone in when you heard it.  The prize each time was the GUN back catalogue on CD, plus entry in to the draw for the big prize – a weekend in Lisbon, Portugal where the guys were playing a festival.

I sat in front of the radio all weekend.  I remember my mum and dad going up to see the grandparents Dundee and to visit my old auntie in Kirriemuir, but I refused to leave the house as I was so desperate to win the big prize!  I actually ended up winning 3 x back catalogues of CDs AND the trip to Portugal!  Happy days!!!

It was a great weekend, I took my friend Lynne and we had a ball with all the people from other areas in the UK who had won.  It’s a bit hazy yet again, there was a lot of booze! But we got to hang out with the guys backstage and there are lots of cool photos from the weekend. 

But not long after that they announced they were splitting up – gutted!  I had a lovely letter from the girl from A&M records who had been with us in Lisbon, inviting us to the last show but I wasn’t able to make it L

Round about the same time, I was 24 so either late 1997 or early 1998, my brothers and I had all discussed getting a tattoo as they were both moving away.  We never did get this arranged, but I had the idea of a tattoo in my head so decided to get one anyway. I toyed with various ideas, one being a GUN one.  But as they had split I decided to go with something else, a small spiral thingy on my ankle.

>>FF to 2008 – they’re back! Well, Jools and Dante from the original line-up are back - and with Toby Jepson on vocals! I quite liked Little Angels when Toby was with them so was keen to hear the new sound. They played a cracking gig at the Carling Academy in Dec 2008, that was a really cool night! By now, though, I had a 5 year old little munchkin on my hands and as much as I would have loved to have gone to see them more, it just wasn’t feasible.  Cash and childcare were limited. And then Toby left the band in 2010, I wondered if that was the end again but no, Dante moved from bass and took over vocals.  Happy days again!

Since then it has been like watching them start all over again, with all the highs and lows that that brings.  I know I get sick of seeing comments like “it’s shit without Mark Rankin on vocals” on YouTube videos etc., so I’ll assume it’s a bit tiresome for them too! 

The first time I saw them with Dante on vocals was at Electric Circus in Edinburgh in 2012 when they released a new album – Break the Silence. It was SO good seeing them again! Stuck around briefly after the gig to say hi but I had to run off for the last train back to sunny Fife.

Over the past few years I’ve been able to get to a lot more gigs again.  My little 5 year old munchkin is now a strapping big 13 year old who could probably look after me better than I can look after him! They even played PJ Molloys in Dunfermline a few years back! Wah! My favourite band in my favourite pub, 5 minutes from my house – awesome!!

The guys have just finished a UK tour, I saw them in Dundee, Edinburgh, and Aberdeen and had a nice wee night out with them.  

Every time I see them live these days they seem better and better each time.  I’ve seen them 5 times this year and even from seeing them in May to seeing them in October, they have upped their game so much.  I’m so proud! Especially of Jools and Dante for just keeping pushing on.  They really have had to come back and start again but my god they’re writing the book on how to do that!

Since that gig in Edinburgh in 2012 I’ve been toying with the idea of getting a GUN tattoo again.  Over the past couple of years, somehow, I don’t know how other than Slimming World just really suits me – I’ve lost so far 8.5 stone in weight and finally have the confidence to bounce around at the front of the crowd without being bothered about jiggling my wobbly bits! I was looking for a non-food based reward for myself for when I get to my target weight, and the tattoo idea did a wee ninja stealth crawl to the front of my mind – I like to think it’s been in hibernation for the past 20 years, just waiting for the right time.

That's me on the far left (obviously, given that the rest of them are men...) after their 2012 Dunfermline gig:

And this is me almost half the size, after their soundcheck in Aberdeen last month:

I’m now only a couple of pounds from target, and here it is!  

20 years in the making, 27 years of being a Gunette, now fully branded! I love it, love the lads, love the tunes, love my fellow Gunette/Gunner family, love that the guys make us crazy fans feel like we’re all the 6^th member of the band.  It has been suggested that I should claim that the tattoo is a permanent ticket to all future gigs, ha ha!!  I just might work on that one!

Big love, always,

Jill xxx

Saturday night's alright for biting...

Apologies for another cringe worthy title (sorry, not sorry... :) )

The past couple of days I have been suffering from 'slimmer's memory', it's a real thing! ;)
I forget that I've had biscuits, crisps, extra little bits creep in to my meals, and then there are the 'f**k it' moments.  When I remember all the things I've already eaten, know i've gone over my Slimming World syns, but think 'f**k it' and eat more anyway. Might as well get hung for a sheep as a lamb, eh?

Then on Friday night, after a really busy week being back at work after 4 weeks holiday (yes, I know, I AM lucky!) I took myself off to bed early, I think I was asleep by about 10pm-ish and slept til 9am, lovely! And I had a pile of Facebook notifications, loads of them, very odd! However, lovely Clair my current Slimming World consultant had invited lots of people to like the page for this blog, and my numbers had doubled overnight!  How nice, it even prompted me to make my breakfast of wheat biscuits and berries look pretty and take a picture of it to post rather than just throwing it down my neck.  It also really helped to refocus my efforts and stop sabotaging myself this week. So hello! Welcome, and thank you so much for being here, I truly appreciate it!

I had already taken the time to plan my meals for the coming week, so I was almost back on track, but my snacks were the problem.  So today I have been much better. I made a big pot of chicken, leek and rice soup and have been snacking on it throughout the day.  I'm also making a bigger effort to drink more water as I often forget to at the weekends.  But it's Saturday and I know I will need nibbles for the evening ahead.  I'm a grazer in the evenings.

So I've made some hummus and dippy veggies (or crudites for the less heathen like amongst you!), sweet potato skins scooped out and mixed with bacon and spring onion, topped with melted cheese (my Healthy Extra A allowance), and then a mix of fat free greek yogurt and some chopped chives (this was just the result of messing about with what was in the fridge - try it!), and a wee packet of chocolate buttons for 4 syns. There was also a bowl of pickled onions and beetroot but I scoffed them. I'm going to have a cheeky wee Jack Daniels and diet coke too (4.5 syns for 35ml), it IS the weekend :)

That wee lot should keep me going all evening!!

Oh and just to prove that I really do eat a huge amount of food, this was tea from 2 hours ago:

Lamb leg steaks with visible fat removed, marinated all day in fat free yogurt and harissa paste (a tiny 0.5 syns per level tspn!), couscous loaded with red onion, green chillis, tomatoes, lime juice, and fresh mint, coriander and flat leaf parsley. A favourite tea that I had forgotten about til I saw a jar of harissa in Asda last week.

Hope these give you some ideas if you are following Slimming World, but to be honest it's just tasty grub for anyone.

Big love,
Jill xxx

Dear Slimming World group...

...I love you. I actually really love you. All of you. All of the people who have been in groups I've gone to in the past, all of the people in my current group. Consultants, members, just everyone, I love you all!

No, I'm not drunk, honest! 

Last week was shit. You cant polish a turd, as they say! I won't go into why much, but as a single mum to a hormonal teenager, sometimes it all gets a little much to cope with alone.  It was just one of those weeks. Every time one of us spoke World War III broke out. Then the dog joined in by creating this display of dog food and plain flour on the kitchen floor...

That was the straw that broke the camel's back.  Once the tears started there was no stopping them, sometimes you just need a good blub! 

It had been bubbling up all week and every day I went over my max amount of slimming world syns. Not by much, but regularly. But amidst my floods of tears on Friday night, I thought about stuffing my face with junk food, then told myself that would only make me feel worse. 'Haud the bus!', I thought, WHAT???

I've been an emotional eater for most of my adult life, if I'm happy I celebrate with food. If I'm sad I console myself with food. If I'm feeling really low I really go to town: pizza, cake, biscuits - whole packets at a time, cheese cheese and more cheese, nachos, chocolate, crisps...anything. I've often thought it's a kind if self harm, like I want to hurt myself, but i do it with junk food.

So to have the clarity of thought at that point to not bother even starting was massive for me.  Yes, I had been overdoing snacks a little all week but at my lowest point I didn't decide to do my impression of a Tasmanian Devil in the bakery aisle of Asda.  And that realisation made me cry some more, but happy tears!

And my boy came home later in a great mood. We had a good chat about us both trying harder, and it's been so much better this week.  And if the past week cost me a 1.5lb gain on the scales then I think that's a bargain.

But seriously, thank you to everyone who has ever propped me up in group, people I've never met on the group Facebook page, anyone who has given me ideas for recipes, shared their good times and bad times, to my past consultants Nikki and Debbie, and my current consultant Dawn, for keeping me motivated enough to stick to a plan for long enough that my old habits have changed without me even noticing.

 I might be a bit misty eyed again just now, wonder if I could cry 1.5lbs of tears out tonight... (I'm kidding!!) 

Big love,

Jill xxx

Preparation, preparation, preparation!

At the risk of sounding like Uncle Tony in his speech here (we're not really related, just have the same surname, honest!), this post is as much a kick up the arse for me as for anyone else struggling to stay on track with their weight loss journey (AGH! I used the J word, again!!!).

Here's what we've been up to recently: a couple of weeks ago, my boy and I had a week's all inclusive holiday in Tenerife. It was so lovely, we just completely chilled out for the week.  Before we went, I had grand plans of not going mad with alcohol, sticking to grilled meats and fish with salad, not having dessert all the time, daily walks... Yeah, well that didn't quite happen!  To be fair on myself, I didn't have a lot of alcohol during the day bar a couple of days where I treated myself to a couple of Pina Coladas and beers by the pool.  But I hardly moved my legs for the week, apart from going from the pool to the restaurant.  I did stick to grilled meats and fish with the fresh salad for most meals, but also developed a dependency on dessert with every meal!  Even breakfast would end with a coffee and a pastry, oops!  But I was on holiday, it was lovely.  I went to my Slimming World group when I got back and over the 2 weeks from when I was last weighed I had gained 5lbs.  Not that bad really, but imagine if I had really gone to town with fried foods, burgers, chips, beer, cocktails, etc etc. It's so easy to undo all the good work.

The week after we arrived home I had a really horrible cold that I'm still trying to shake off.  As much as I tried to eat healthily, I just wanted toast and butter, and tea and biscuits.  So another week of not being great with what I was eating and it was beginning to be the norm again.  Yesterday I started to feel a bit better.  It was a lovely sunny day so I got my backside in gear, planned our meals for the week, made a shopping list, and went to buy what I needed.

This has to be the best bit of advice I could give to anyone trying to lose weight, whether it's on Slimming World or any other plan.  Prepare!!!  A good plan gives you the chance to make sure you have a variety of food throughout the week, it can make sure you use up your leftovers so you don't waste food.  Budget is a big factor when i am shopping, money is tight so i need to make things go as far as possible.  Yesterday I made a batch of bolognese sauce (will make a good 6 portions), a batch of chilli bulked out with black eyed beans, peppers and mushrooms (should do a good 6 portions too), a pot of veg and lentil soup, and a Chilli Papas chicken balti bulked out with a tin of chickpea dahl and peppers (about 4-5 portions). My freezer is packed :)

Here's my bag of food for bringing to work today: (my awesome bag was given to me by my lovey cousin, Nicola, it's by MooMoo Bags!)

Breakfast is a portion of baked oats that I made last night, I'll heat it up in the microwave at work and I have a tub of fat free cherry yogurt and some blueberries to have with it. (recipe here) I only used about 50g of blueberries, rather than raspberries in the baked oats.  I also substituted the 3 tbsp of sweetener as that seems an awful lot and I tend to react badly to a lot if artificial sweetener. Instead I used a teeny squirt of a vanilla sweetener that I put in my coffee, worked just fine.

For a snack I segmented a grapefruit, just because I really like grapefruit in the morning.

Lunch was a portion of leftover pasta bolognese from last night's dinner, plus a tub of salad leaves and cherry tomatoes.  I almost just heated them up and ate from the tubs but instead I put them on a plate and had my 1/3 plate of 'speed' foods as recommended by Slimming World.  Doing this, I didn't eat the whole portion of pasta as I couldn't fit it all on the plate, but I was satisfied with what I had - I ended up nibbling on the rest later in the day but that was better than nicking a Krispy Kreme donut from the office next door!  I also had a couple of teaspoons of grated parmesan to put on my pasta, dead tasty and filling lunch!

For a snack in the afternoon, I had a banana and also took an Alpen Light cereal bar for having with my afternoon coffee.  Jaffa cake flavour, nice! Although not as nice as the Slimming World chocolate orange Hi-fi bars :)

Dinner tonight will be home made chilli with some boiled rice and salad.  Here's how my day looks in a Slimming World sense:

Breakfast:
baked oats recipe - Healthy B choice (oats)
baked blueberries - 1 Syn
yogurt/blueberries - free

Grapefruit - free

Lunch:
pasta bolognese - free
salad/balsamic vinegar - free
1 level tbsp parmesan - 1 syn

Snacks:
Banana - free
Alpen light bar - 3 syns

Dinner:
Chilli - free
rice - free
salad/balsamic - free
2 tbsp salsa - 0.5 syns
2 tbsp half fat creme fraiche - 2 syns
30g mature cheddar - Healthy A choice

Supper is going to be a ham omelette.  I find if I have eggs at suppertime it fills me up so I don't pick at rubbish the rest of the night.  That's the theory anyway, evenings are my downfall.  I have some studying to do tonight though so hopefully that will keep me busy enough that I don't start picking.  If I do, I've got grapes and apples in the house, I'll try VERY hard to stick to them!

But I think I'll be ok, I feel very re-motivated this week.  I even started my Christmas shopping and I really couldn't be bothered even thinking about it last week.

Hope you all have a great week!
(Oh, here, have a picture of a dolphin that swam by our boat in Tenerife on a day trip.  Just because it's beautiful!)

Big love,
Jill xx

No chocolates, please - I'm winning

Again, not really a blog post about home cooking, sorry Pots of Love!  I'll bore you all over the next few weeks with some of the things I've been rustling up recently though.

This time I wanted to do a quick post about a new phenomenon to me - Weight Loss Sabotage!  I don't think any of the recent events have been intended as malicious, but that doesn't make them any less confusing, or hurtful.

I've lost weight in the past, a couple of stone, then get a bit cocky when people start noticing, and eat a pizza, 4 jars of Nutella, a bottle of wine, bag of Maltesers etc etc....every weekend...until...BOOM! 2 stone back on, plus a bit more.  So to have lost significantly more than that over the past few years (see my blog post here) is a pretty big achievement, as my friends and family all know.

I still have a way to go, I'm a good 2 - 2.5 stone over what would be considered a healthy weight for my height and age so that's my ultimate aim now.  It's quite exciting, I don't remember the last time I was only overweight and not obese!! But overweight i am.  I know BMI charts aren't the most reliable indicator of this, but since I'm not a muscle stacked weight lifter or anything, it'll do as a fair guide.

But I couldn't tell you how many times in the past few weeks people have said "you're not going to lose any more weight though, are you?", and variations of that, I've also had "you need to stop, you've got a lollypop head".

Well intentioned they may be, but I think they made me feel worse than any veiled dig at me being fat in the past to the point where I struggled for days to keep myself on track and not just have a huge self pitying blow out of salami pizzas, cake, chocolate and wine.

I might dress to cover up my wobbly flabby bits, but they are definitely there.  They don't bother me, I know they will shrink soon enough. Every pound closer to that target I get is a pound less my heart is having to work harder to carry around.  I'll never have a toned taught body, I have too much loose skin for that, but this isn't about how I look, it's about making my insides healthier.

I can't help where I lose weight from first.  I seem to have shrunk quite quickly across my shoulders. I put weight on my boobs first and lose it from there last though.  Honestly, 7 stone lighter and I've only gone down a couple of bra sizes, it's mad - but that's how my body works.  So as much as i know that to say anyone with 34JJ boobs might have a head that appears large in comparison to their body is a bit ridiculous, it still hurt.  If looking at my freakishly gigantic head (because that's what I've made it in my mind now) offends you - well, tough shit really.  If you have a friend/colleague/family member who is on a weight loss (sorry for using the 'j' word) journey, they really don't need to hear shit like that, no matter how much you think it's helpful.  If you can't say anything positive, just button it, really!

I'm a 41 year old grown woman. I know my height, I know my weight, I know what I look like naked.  Only 1 other adult recently knows what I look like naked and it's none of the people who have made comments to me.

I also had a birthday recently.  I could have opened a sweet shop with the amount of boxes of chocolates I was given.  Thank you if you gave me any, it's always nice to receive a gift - thank you also from the local food bank as that's where they went.  Apart from 1 box.  That was eaten (the WHOLE box) over 2 nights.  Because I have no OFF switch with chocolates.  I devoured 1 box (2 layers!) and then realised I couldn't keep the rest in my house so I donated them all to a food bank.  So please, please, again if you know someone who has worked really hard to lose weight, don't stick temptation under their nose. Get them a lovely fruit basket, flowers, a gift voucher, smellies... Put a bit of thought into it, it will be so hugely appreciated, I bet.

Like I say, I don't believe any of the recent events were meant with any malice, but just because I, or anyone else, laughs things off in front of you, it doesn't mean they haven't hurt.

Big love, be kind to one another.
JB xx

Blow your trumpet!!

First things first...2 years since my last blog post?! Life has been busy!

However, something happened today and I felt the need to bore as many people as possible with it :)

A bit of background: In May 2011 I decided to change the future for me and my son, Alister.  I abseiled off the Forth Rail Bridge in aid of Chest Heart and Stroke Scotland, saw photos of myself, and was so horrified at how big I looked that I weighed myself for the first time in a long time. The number on the scales terrified me: 19stone 8lbs. I was less than half a stone away from 20 stone, how did that even happen without me noticing? 

Seriously, if you need some motivation to lose weight, get your arse in a safety harness, it's a real eye opener!!

My immediate thought was that I was essentially killing myself. Having lost my dad far too young, I couldn't willingly make that a possibility for my son. None of us can stop bad things happening, but we CAN stop making them more likely if we want to.

Over the next few years I lost about 3 stone through using the MyFitnessPal app to log all my food and exercise. I would go through spells of losing weight easily, then during holiday periods I would fall off the wagon and put a bit back on again. But at September 2014 I was at 17 stone 2lbs and had taken up running, using the C25K app (I'd definitely recommend this if you fancy giving running a go). I was also following the Fat Girl's Guide to Running (with Julie Creffield) on Facebook. I signed up to Julie's first monthly fitness challenge which included daily and weekly fitness and nutrition challenges. At the end of September I was thrilled to have lost 10lbs!! 

In the meantime, an old friend of mine, Nikki Williamson, had trained as a Slimming World consultant and was going to be starting her classes in October. I'd gone to groups in the past (Rosemary Conley, Scottish Slimmers...) but was in the "I'm not paying someone to weigh me" camp. But as it was Nikki, I decided I would go to support her in her new venture. I even believed that I wasn't going for me for a bit :) 

So I hopped on the scales on the first night and the 16stone 6lbs that showed on the screen wasn't a surprise. I set myself an interim target of 13stone and it felt like a mammoth, unreachable number right then.  

Apologies, this has become a bit of self therapy, but hang in there, I will get to the thing that happened today!!

To cut a long story a bit shorter, on 16th June this year I reached that first target and set a new one of 11stone. 3stone 6lbs lost in 9 months, happy days! Slimming World just seems to fit in to my life easily, and I finally admitted that a group support network is exactly what I need. We have a walking group set up now on a Wednesday too, which is lovely!  I've now lost 3stone 11lbs, and managed to not put weight on over my summer holiday period, a massive result for me. Shopping is weird, I can't remember when I last shopped for size 12 or 14 clothes, but it's nice trying stuff on. I absolutely can't remember when I last weight 12 stone anything, but I do now!  I even won the Woman of the Year award in our Slimming World group. Me! Ha ha!! This is the same girl as in the first photo up there ^^

Anyway, today I went to Aldi. I have lots on this weekend and was planning to get a Tesco delivery but rejigged some stuff and went to Aldi today. It's about a 5km round trip walk for me and I needed lots. Now school and work are back to normal I'm determined to get back in the habit of planning the meals for the week and shopping for that.  So I took Alister's big rucksack and another couple of bags and off I went with my list.

I put all the heavy stuff in the rucksack and carried the lighter stuff in bags. So in the rucksack I had bags of veg, frozen peas, frozen prawns, tins, masses of fruit, 6 litres of milk, bacon, mince, eggs...it absolutely weighed a tonne. I had to stop a couple of times on the walk home to take a rest but then plodded on. As I was walking I tried to guess how much the rucksack of stuff weighed. My estimate was about 4 stone. As I've lost 4.5 stone since last September I thought it would be interesting to weigh the bag when I got home to see how close it was.

2stone 2lbs. That was it. Nowhere even near 4 stone.  This huge, rammed full bag weighed less than half the amount that I've lost in the past 11 months.  A third of what I've lost since I was at my heaviest.  I don't feel much different to how I did back then. I'm not smarter, or happier, or prettier, or funnier, or more caring, or less loving.  I'm just smaller and weigh less.  And healthier. The weight loss has been gradual so I don't really notice anything different. But I've said to a few people recently that if I was given a 7 stone bag to carry around with me I'd sure know about it! And I'm completely blown away by this thing today. Even half the weight of that rucksack is heavy! I know so many people in our group who have lost a stone or 2 stone and aren't blowing their own trumpets about it - GET BLOWING!!!!

Fill a bag with stuff, weigh it, get it to the weight you have lost, and I bet you completely underestimate the enormity of what you have done! Go on! Do it today!! Then give yourself an almighty pat on the back, and a big hug!!